Unconscious Mutterings
I say, and you think: Course :: of Action Delusion :: Most of my thoughts Silly :: Putty Intrepid :: USS Candle :: in the Wind Entrance :: Exit Voracious :: Appetite Taste :: Savor Bobble :: Head...
View ArticleSunday Stealing: Our Players' Meme
Barely before the next one is available, I am finally posting last week's Sunday Stealing entry. They combined two different memes for this one so you'll see a little note where the first ends and...
View ArticleOne Little Call
(Certain details have been changed in the following post to mask it so it won't be found easily if someone happens to Google it, but the story remains substantially true.) It is amazing how things can...
View ArticleMore Calls, More Mystery...
Just so you can keep the cast of characters straight for this latest saga: Velma – W’s ex-wife whom we recently learned died a while back Fred – W’s eldest son who lives in the same area as Velma did...
View ArticleMystery Solved... Sort of...
Just so you can keep the cast of characters straight for this latest saga: Velma – W’s ex-wife whom we recently learned died a while back Fred – W’s eldest son who lives in the same area as Velma did...
View ArticleBecause Nothing in Life is Simple
Nope. No simplicity here. Although the mystery, or most of it, was solved it wasn't the end of the troubles. The attorney is now requiring a much larger retainer because of the complications that arose...
View ArticleLalalalalalalalala
Yes, I am at the point of putting my hands up over my ears and loudly singing, "Lalalalalalalala I can't hear you!" Denial. Not just a river in Egypt, but a place for me to settle into for a while....
View ArticleJ, J, J
So...................................................... J is separated... again. Now, he had been contacting me a lot lately, and I should have suspected. However, my lil pea brain didn't go there....
View ArticleMore Thinking About J
Trying really hard to figure out why I can't ever let go of J.Part of it, of course, is that he never really let's go of me. In that way he is different from others I might be inclined to hang onto....
View ArticleToday's Email to J
So……… What is it that you want from me? That is really what has me confused and stirred up. What exactly is it that you want from me? What is your desired long term outcome here in terms of our...
View ArticleObvious
Can you tell I'm off my meds? As I looked back at the posts just before radio silence for a month and then the ones just after it seems like even the least astute of you would be rolling your eyes and...
View ArticleNo Toe in the Water
Oh no. I am not a toe in the water kind of gal. Nope. I just jump right in, both feet up to my knees before I know it. I texted J last night, regretting the email that I had sent and asking him to...
View ArticleSpin Cycle
What does it look like to spin slowly out of control, watching yourself as though all is traveling in slow motion? It looks exactly like what I am doing. It is the darnedest thing. Here I am,...
View ArticleCue The Theme from Dudley Do Right
I like me much better when I don't indulge in melodrama. Right now, I'm not liking myself so much...
View ArticleI Don't Get It
J, like most men to me, is a mystery. I have no idea what is in his head most of the time. What is scary is that I think we are the essence of the cliche, the old joke that goes something like this:...
View ArticleBack on My Meds
Yes, I went back on my meds as soon as I posted that I was off of them. It was a bit of a wakeup call that I saw myself devolving into someone I don’t want to be. Now, don’t get me wrong. I’m still...
View ArticleWell...
That was just about as unsatisfying as it could possibly have been. Why am I surprised? I should have known. Yet for some unknown reason I always hope. Idiot.
View ArticleLet Us Give Thanks
Thank goodness I see Freud today instead of the usual Wednesday (thanks Thanksgiving for making this shift necessary long in advance before I knew what a state I'd be in today). J is playing me. J is...
View ArticleTuesday Therapy
Freud suggested that having a private journal where I write about my experiences and feelings pertaining to J, as well as other things, might be a good way for me to work through some of this. Hi there...
View ArticleMore Tuesday Therapy (even though it's Wednesday now)
Where were we? Oh yes, I had given Freud the Cliffs Notes version of “The Not So Great Love Story of J & TS.” So there I sat, damp tissues in my hand, in the waste basket, and just about...
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